Soft Hours on Productivity & Worth

Executive Function, Achievement, and the Voice That Still Runs You

Data Collectors,

Apologizes for the echo, traveling means travel mic and environments that are not mine. I had to face the perfection head on. Post the audio or scratch it. I chose to post it. 🫣

Leaving the Clinician at the Door

I’m leaving the clinician at the door for this one. This is more Yalom vibes than diagnostic manual, and that has never been my jam. I’ve officially been building this work full/part-time for a year now, fully remote, fully self-directed, and what I’m learning about myself has very little to do with theory and a lot to do with structure. When someone is waiting for you at 2:00 PM, when there’s a bell schedule, a supervisor, a syllabus, your nervous system organizes around that expectation. There is containment. There is a rhythm that holds you. When you remove that structure and you become the container, something else surfaces. For me, masked ADHD patterns came to the surface in ways I didn’t fully notice before. The creative process lights me up. Writing, mapping, building frameworks, filming, thinking — that is not the problem. The friction lives in the systems around it. The tech. The backend. The uploading. The logistics. And when friction shows up, my high-functioning self does what she’s always done. She overrides. She hyper-fixates. She says, “We can handle it.” And because I can handle it, I do. That’s the trap.