Let me take you all on a little journey.
Based on the title…
How fast did you click this essay?
How quick did your mind stop and create a story? ← That’s the pattern we focus on.
This work involves us to all learn the skills to find the safety to speak regardless of what others may think, feel, or whatever about it. Haven’t some of us finally realized the level of “damned if you do, damned if you don’t” that lives in this world? Was experiencing it from the parents and elders not enough?
Anywho,
It’s learning how to be in the frequency of truth regardless if that is not true for others or makes them upset.
Now let’s begins.
In typical Sav style, somatic is the way through this Safari. Let’s pretend this is the magic school bus safari style. First stop, Emotional Frequencies.
Emotional frequencies are nothing new.
Just peep The Hawkins Scale of Consciousness which proposes that every human emotion has a specific emotional vibration that emits a frequency measured on a algorithmic scale from 1 to 1,000. Low-frequency emotions like Shame (20) and Guilt (30) represent states of suffering and contraction, while the “tipping point” occurs at Courage (200), where an individual begins to shift from destructive to constructive behavior. High-frequency states such as Love (500), Joy (540), and Peace (600) reflect an expanded state of awareness that Hawkins claims can positively influence the collective energy of the world.
The data point I’m noticing through my studies of human behavior, is that these frequencies are felt before even coming into contact with a person.
I reflect onto why…
Well, going back to my foundational pillar of perception. Social constructs and the hippocampus archives— do a good job of filling in and perceiving people in a way that is not necessarily based on truth itself— it’s based on perception. When we are perceiving people based on constructs, group think, or what the world told us to believe (these days our TVs and our phones.) We rob ourselves of access to the very frequency needed to connect with others.
The Love frequency
Last night I was out with my aunt for her birthday. She had her friends and we were at a cantina in Cali with karaoke. For me, it has always been hard to be in social settings. But, when I am in the room, I am in THE ROOM. I can observe behaviors in everyone, not by choice, but by the frequency of presence. I know, I know the crunchy language for some of y’all. There is a method to my madness. In presence, you notice everything: body language shifts, unspoken truths or feelings, micro expressions all swallowed.
I watch how the regulars come in, hugging the bartender, coming to support his surprise baby shower.
I see people.
Adults, children, kids, seniors.
Everyone is in the frequency of love, connecting, hugging. The group I came with and everyone else in the restaurant, too. A woman in her late 70s, maybe early 80s, sang “New York, New York” by Frank Sinatra. The frequency of her voice catapulted me to the memory she was in— within that moment. The years when she was the heartthrob men chased. The queen she was, right there in that moment.
The gift of time travel.
Watching her sing her heart out, she closed her eyes to access the moment, the memory, the feeling. I was right there with her, surrounded by a loud bar, people talking, laughing, enjoying themselves. The moment I got to share with her. Did she notice? Wrong question. She was embodying presence, embodying love. She was not in the loud bar. She was with herself. And in that moment, I was with her too.
Frequency work honestly brings me to tears. As a woman of color to say “ I Don’t See Color” the part of me that is purely just here with myself in this moment writing these words can confidently say. Yes, I said what I said. I do not see color.
Does any of that mean injustice because of color does not exist? Did any of that say prejudices and those who judge over color doesn’t exist? No. It simply said that’s what I see.
Go to a playground…
In a non-creepy way and observe children.
They live in the love frequency.
They bond and connect with other kids, not other cultural backgrounds. They are in the purest form of connection because there are no constructs living in their mental garden yet, unless they’ve been placed there by parents or, these days, teachers (a discussion for another time.) Most kids live in the frequency of love because they are in the now.
Now, let’s pause.
Can the eyeballs see a difference in skin color? yes.
The moment our eyes glance at the world, the meaning of what we see is filtered. This filtration system isn't universal; it is uniquely shaped by our past imprints, our life experiences, and the constant narratives we feed ourselves. When someone lives primarily within the stories of their own mind, those stories trigger physical sensations in the body. Consequently, if they encounter a statement that contradicts their internal 'rumination loop,' the speaker of that truth is immediately perceived as a threat.
I think of Erik Erikson’s developmental stages and how some are stuck in what he called the Integrity vs. Despair stage. I have met my fair share of despair-ridden adults vibrating in the emotional frequency of regret. Now bring in the consideration of the mind-body connection and Dr. Joe Dispenza’s work. A chronic state of regret. Could you imagine its toll on the physical body, let alone the mind? These days, color is not the only issue that blocks us from accessing the frequency of love. Individual beliefs and opinions do. Can you believe that? We are actually being trained to feel unsafe with our own belief systems and original thoughts, making it harder to strengthen the muscle of discernment. Why do you think that is?
Do you know how sad my heart feels when I am in a conversation with someone who is stuttering over their words, not because they don’t know what to say, but because they are fearful of my perception — of them..
Harriet Lauler tells Amanda Seyfried’s character in the movie The Last Word…
“Say what you need to say. Even if it's the 'wrong' thing. Because the 'right' thing is usually just what people want to hear.”
I notice this to be true with humans. It's something for me I can feel when people are dancing around their truth in their mind, while struggling to find the words they think won’t upset me. That’s where I tell them “You're emotionally managing” Say what you need to say. The ability for someone else to speak their truth about something in the presence of me. I am honored for that. These days it’s rare to find other beings safe enough to process what’s heavy on your own mind. Without the nagging urgency of being cautious with your truth. Its exhausting. I know many of you reading these words right now are silently suffering in what you don’t feel safe to release.
I see you.
The image above is a scene from While You Were Sleeping. A 1995 film where a Sandra Bullock saves a names a man from the railroad tracks, while he is in a coma is invited into his family. She herself does not have a family. So she observes, takes it in, The presence of love between each member as they share excitement and joy.
I observe the frequency of everyone in this way. Especially when in public. People watching is such a favorite activity for me. I just love watching humans exist in their own ways. This is the state I was in last night at the karaoke. I go in and out from different areas, outside in the parking lot to the women drinking Buzz Balls. (Which by the way are disgusting) but to each their own. I have never been an alcohol enjoyer, and my body tends to inflame up like the nutty professor when I do indulge. So take that with some salt.
Just watching everyone enjoy themselves. Brings me joy.
Now, a bit of a story time from that evening. At the time of me writing this was last night. When this is posted it will be the future and this night will have becomes the past.
As I make my rounds to different areas of the nights event. I walk passed a woman who had a foreshadowing moment with me a hour earlier. She came in with a man and there was — let’s say—energy between the two of them. I walk past that same woman with a different lady she met inside smoking a cigarette outside. As I walk passed them I enter into her emotional frequency. For me it feels like That’s So Raven getting a vision. 🤭 For such a quick seconds, I experience her field.
“Fuck him, fuck this shit dude you think lalalala …”
Clearly she and the dude she came in with have some business to sort through. I touched heart and smiled because what I felt wasn’t necessaryily an ache. It was love. Love coming from a woman experiencing fear, anger is a secondary emotion. The frequency she was in underneath all the F bombs. That was fear. A fear many and I mean many of us women have faced in relationships. Sure enough when it was that womans time to sing 45 mins later. She chooses The Wreckers- Leave The Pieces and sings it directly AT her man.
My face was priceless.
I said to myself “oh, we doing that here? right now?”
I feel a sense of “touch heart” as we say in the Sign language interpreting world.
Because we are all so similar in our melodrama’s, our avoidance, and our fear of saying what we really want to say. Especially to the people we are closest to. What ends up happening is many of us. Women especially, don’t even know what we are mad or upset about. We just know how we “should” be responding. The way society conditioned us to respond.
And we don’t question that.
That level of unquestioning compliance does not sit well with me.
Now
I am back home in California for a bit. It’s diverse here. That’s perception.
People in El Paso think it’s diverse there and all I can do is…. 🤨
Is it? Or do people mostly look like you and that makes you feel safe? Many of my clients that leave their safe areas of sameness go somewhere else and become nervous. I see this a lot in the black community. Where scanning for the other black person in the room is a mechanisms we train. These days if we are being truly honest with ourself. We train it, not the environment. We stay with the same culture background, with people that look like us. But guess what. Check the stories that group talks about?Listen closely, what is being shared, discussed, believed? How is repeating the same cycle narrative cycles that leave us feeling unsafe around white people, men etc. When will we ever feel safe? Is the goal to never feel safe?
its not about arguing the facts of injustice and racism. Wrong arena if thats what you came for. This is about what being in those arenas constantly, what symptoms is that behavior silently reinforcing in the background that you do not see?
In this restaurant everybody was so many different shades of skin completion, cultural background, and age. There were white people in the room. There were Black people in the room. The bartender was black. He probably was the owner. People loved that guy, he would say hi to families, kids, elders. He would hug and connect. Do you think anyone was bringing up politics? no. Because politics does not live in the love frequency. It's a construct, and constructs are drifting agents. The devil in Napolean Hills work Outwitting the Devil. Block you from the love frequency powers of connection.
One of the things that I’ve learned through this work and over 15 years of experience with children. Children are teachers and models of the love frequency. Observe kids outside playing. In the state of play.
Are they discussing politic?
Are they discussing why you voted or believe a certain way?
Are they judging you for your way to choose how to operate your life?
For how you dressed, and the way you did your hair that day?
No.
Kids teach us something so valuable about presence because you cannot access the Love frequency without it. That’s why play is so valuable to our sticky little brains and accessing the inner child within, instead of losing it to the noise of being an “adult.” Adults lost sight of play— some, really. We get lost in drifting. What Napoleon Hill would call the devil, to add my flare to it— the devil energy. This frequency is what causes us to “not feel like it” so we start scrolling, and dissociating through drinking and partying. Can you wonder why we don’t feel like it?
Sure, it’s fun, but it wreaks havoc on the body’s ability to get back up in frequency, especially with alcohol, due to it being a downer. According to the text Uppers, Downers, and All Arounders:
The Chemical Anchor to Fear (100) and Grief (75): The text identifies alcohol as a Central Nervous System (CNS) Depressant. By increasing GABA (the brain’s primary inhibitory neurotransmitter), alcohol creates a “false peace.” In Hawkins’ terms, this isn’t the true Peace (600) of consciousness, but a chemical suppression that keeps a person trapped in the lower, non-integrated states of Apathy (50) or Grief (75).
The Depletion of the Reward Pathway: According to the text, chronic use of downers disrupts the mesolimbic dopaminergic system. This is the pathway responsible for the “natural high” children experience during play. When this system is hijacked by substances, the brain loses its ability to generate the high-frequency energy required for Love (500) and Joy (540) without a chemical trigger, making the “portal” feel further away.
The Hysteria Feedback Loop: Uppers, Downers, and All Arounders discusses how societal stress and “all-arounder” environmental stimuli (like constant digital noise) trigger the sympathetic nervous system. This keeps the body in a state of hyper-arousal or “hysteria.” When an adult tries to “quiet” this hysteria with alcohol, more noise from the program boxes (phone, TV, computer) they enter a cycle of “rebound anxiety,” effectively locking them into the frequencies of Fear (100) and Anger (150), preventing the rise to Courage (200) and beyond.
Loss of Neuroplasticity (The “Sticky” Brain): The “sticky little brains” of children possess high neuroplasticity. The text notes that alcohol and certain drugs can lead to neurotoxicity and the shrinking of the hippocampus. This physically limits an adult’s ability to remain “present,” which Hawkins argues is the only state in which one can calibrate at the level of Love.
This leads me to my next point and from what I have learned being multiracial woman
Black
White
Native American (Muscogee🥰)
I can say this with pure love in my heart despite knowing it will upset others.
I don’t see color.
Yes I know I know you can SEE color with your eyeballs. 👀
But you can not see color with your heart, because Love is a felt frequency. It’s the frequency of healing. It’s the frequency of presence. It’s the frequency by which so many gaps get bridged through repair. Love is a frequency that is so powerful. We take that power for granted and give it to the devil energy that drifts us apart from it.
Let’s pause really quickly so we can each individually reflect:
What is our perception of love?
When you see the word:
LOVE
What comes up? What do you feel? What images or stories does your mind play?
Take a moment, real quick, and sit with that.
For me, love is an essence. You become so engulfed in that moment that you are locked into a frequency—almost as if time ceases to exist. I know we have all experienced that.
What does this look like for you?
This specific night mentioned in this essay, it looked like what happened at this restaurant: watching everybody love and share the collective energy of enjoyment without bringing politics or racism into the room to try and ruin it. Now, some people will bring it up, but that only demonstrates their inability to access the safety within. the same way women can’t surrender to trusting that men that do not cheat exist. Think about it: if the energy is softening and someone in their own private life has not accessed that frequency of softer energy—one that is safe and flowing—then, especially these days, that softness can feel like a trap. It’s giving “ A black river, perhaps it is not too deep” As winifred Sanderson touches the black road thinking it’s a black river.
This is especially true for those of us who linger in the corridors of the “Fear Wing” in the emotional frequency mansion.
I don’t fault these people; I worry for them.
Just like exercise, we need the ability to access the Love frequency (500). We can’t get there if the garden of the mind is full of drive-in-movie-sized stories about “XYZ.” That blocks us. It’s just like when we are in our relationships and we’re trying to bridge repair with our partner, but we can’t because the other person is still stuck. They are still upset, ruminating on a “mind-movie” story; making meaning from their distorted story. They are at a frequency that makes them unable to access the repair. This happens all the time.
Think about how many bids for connections left to hang there. Simply because the individuals were not on the same frequency to touch that love together.
I challenge you. See if you can access the inner children—the ones who can access the innate power of the Love frequency (500). This is especially vital now, with everything that infiltrates our minds, keeps us up at night, or keeps us in a constant state of worry.
I challenge you.
To the minority communities: the next time you see a white person, I want you to notice the story your mind creates for them. See what it tells you and how it impacts your body. Then, ask yourself:
“Is this true about that person?” Most likely not.
To the White, Caucasian however you identify community I challenge the same. How much of our beliefs is being shaped by information we gained through breaking bread with people or being told how to feel about people…
My gripe with the “race war” is the amount of POC who think the reverse prejudice that is taking place towards those who are white, or seen as “privileged,” is a behavior that aligns with our deep ancestral being. Truly, this is mother willow energy. The greats before us I truly feel knew something we didn’t. They tried to teach us in ways they thought would reach us. It was never about the division noise. It’s about the illusion of fear we all have which is why we create the division noise, to distract us from that fear.
Reflect on this.
The Biology of the "Story"
To tie this into the technical framework of Dr. David Hawkins and the physiological impact of “reverse prejudice”:
The Frequency of Neutrality (250): Hawkins teaches that the first step out of conflict is Neutrality. This is the level where we stop judging others based on “stories” and start seeing them as individuals. When we project a “drive-in movie” story onto a stranger, we drop back into Anger (150) or Fear (100). This creates a physiological “armor” that prevents us from ever reaching the healing of the Love frequency.
The “Us vs. Them” Neural Loop: According to Uppers, Downers, and All Arounders, the brain is wired for tribalism when it is in a state of survival. High levels of cortisol (the stress hormone) make the brain rely on stereotypes to “shortcut” safety. By pausing and asking, “Is this true about that person?” you are manually overriding the amygdala and engaging the Prefrontal Cortex, which is the physical gateway to presence and empathy.
Heart-Space Energy as a Bridge: When I mention “heart-space energy,” what I am describing is what Hawkins calls the Calibration of Power.
Force (prejudice, fear, division) always requires an enemy to sustain itself.
Power (Love, Presence) requires nothing but the truth of the moment.
By dropping the story, you aren’t just being “nice” to the other person—you are reclaiming your own frequency and allowing your body to exit the “Fear Wing” of the emotional mansion.
Here is a concrete example of what this would look like in practice.
The Example: The Unreturned Text
The Scenario: You send a thoughtful text to a friend, and they don’t reply for two days.
1. The Melodrama (Living in the Story): Your internal “filtration system” kicks in. You tell yourself, “They are ignoring me,” or “I must have said something wrong.” This is the rumination loop. Understand, some of us have loops that are pretty— intense and emotionally self harmful, where is all that built up going? Consider that data okay loves.
The Result: Your body reacts with tension or a sinking feeling. Because you are living in this story, your friend has now become a “threat” to your peace of mind. To sustain this story, you might start digging up old “imprints” from the hippocampus archives of times people let you down (confirmation bias.) This is what your image calls “Force”—it requires an enemy (your friend’s perceived coldness) to sustain the drama.
2. Dropping the Story (Heart-Space Energy): Instead of feeding the loop, you choose to stay in the “truth of the moment”. The truth is simply: The text is sent, and there is no reply yet. * The Result: By refusing to assign a negative meaning to the silence, you aren’t just being “nice” to your friend; you are reclaiming your own frequency. You stay calm. You exit the “Fear Wing” of your emotional mansion and stay in a place of “Power” (Presence).
3. The Outcome: When the friend finally calls and says, “I’m so sorry, I had a family emergency,” the person in the melodrama feels exhausted from two days of imaginary fighting (looping). The person in the heart-space is already balanced and ready to actually be there for their friend.
Reflection: The Library of Life
I am not here to convince anyone of anything, but simply to share my brain and heart with the world in a way that is even scary for me at times. I am here to be Sav and to operate from the frequency of Love, because connecting with the “libraries of life”—which is what I call humans—is so important to me. It is what brings flavor to this world. If we can all learn to accept each other instead of dividing and letting the “devil win”, we can access the Love frequency effortlessly. Yes there is darkness. Yes, but light always shines through. Remember that.
I leave you with these questions:
Has our obsession with inclusivity created the very division we claim to be fatigued by?
How has our collective need to be empowered swung the pendulum in the opposite direction?
Does empowerment come from pushing others under? So we can be on top?
In my heart, it does not.
That’s why I don’t represent flags, movements, or noise designed to cloud the collective’s judgment. I serve people—beings who are struggling. I hold the ache of those unable to metabolize. If I represent one flag, others may deem themselves unwelcome, and that is something those stuck and attached to ideologies can’t grasp because their minds have weak muscles for nuance.
My work starts with perception.
If you haven’t watched my YouTube video on perception and did the quest plus collected your 10 page reinforcement— you can do so here
Now, to tie this all up with some evidence to leave our sticky little brains in marination mode. We can look back at why my perception of Love being felt aligns with a lot of Hawkins teachings.
The Trap of Ideology: Dr. David Hawkins noted that Pride (175) is often the most dangerous block to the Love frequency (500). Pride is the use of “flags and movements” it feels like empowerment because it is higher than Fear, but it is still based on “us vs. them.” As I said, it lacks the “muscles for nuance” required to reach the higher states of Reason (400) and Love (500).
Metabolizing the Ache: In Uppers, Downers, and All Arounders, the inability to “metabolize” emotional pain often leads to the “drift” of substance use. When people cannot process their trauma, they cling to rigid ideologies as a shield. So, by staying neutral and refusing to fly a specific flag, we are creating a “low-cortisol environment” that allows others to finally lower their guard and begin to heal. This will feel very unsafe for some of you. Because the very flags we fly, ideologies we cling to, and beliefs we default to the world. Those become unconscious shields of false protection. Disconnecting you further from the world and presence around you.
Effortless Love: Hawkins taught that Love isn’t something you do, it’s something you are when you stop resisting the truth of the present moment. By seeing people as “libraries” rather than “labels,” we start to manually shifting our nervous system out of the “Fear Wing” and into the frequency of repair.
When we shift our focus to stand in this neutral, heart-centered space, we do more than just share an opinion, we act as a biological and energetic 'tuning fork' for everyone around us. By refusing to get lost in the 'drift' of substances, political noise, societal division, or the gridlock of family dynamics and the desperate need to belong, we preserve the 'sticky,' present-focused brain of the inner child. In doing so, we transform the 'Fear Wing' of the emotional mansion into a sanctuary. A place where others can finally put down their flags, quiet their minds, and remember how to play.
The Neurology of the Narrative: Training the Dendrites🤗
To move from immediate reaction to discernment, we must understand that the brain is a pattern-recognition machine. When we focus on historical trauma or societal division, we are physically strengthening the neural pathways (dendrites) that look for those specific patterns.
Reflective Questions for Deep Analysis
When we prioritize the search for ‘proof’ of division, are we observing reality, or are we training our dendrites to ignore the frequency of connection in favor of the frequency of conflict?
If you feel offended when someone connects with your soul instead of your skin, what is the 'why' behind that offense? Are you defending your true frequency, or are you defending an assigned story that requires division to feel real?
How much of our current outrage is a biological ‘echo’ of a past we did not personally live, and how does carrying that echo limit our capacity to inhabit the ‘Heart-Space’ in the only moment that actually exists— the presence?
To ‘not see color’ is not an act of looking away; it is an act of looking deeper. It is the practice of refusing to let the visual ‘drift’ the superficial markers of flesh trigger a pre-programmed rumination loop. When we categorize a human being before we have even ‘broken bread’ with them, we are choosing the safety of a label over the power of a presence.
Challenging the “Why” of the Offense
Questions to audit your own “Fear Wing” in the emotional frequency mansion.
Why does the presence of a neutral ‘Tuning Fork’—someone who refuses to engage in the war of labels— feel like an act of violence? Does the peace others choose for themselves feel like a dismissal of your pain, or does it simply highlight the exhaustion of your own loop?
Does focusing on the ‘constant injustice’ of the past provide a solution, or does it merely provide a familiar ‘flavor’ of adrenaline that the body has become addicted to?
If we stripped away the stories, the news cycles, and the ancestral gridlock, what would actually be left between us? If the answer is ‘Love,’ then why is ‘Love’ treated as a dissociative statement rather than the ultimate embodiment of truth?
Practice: The Discernment Audit
To train the brain for this shift:
Notice the Trigger: When you hear “I don’t see color,” or any statement that typically trigger a nervous system shift notice where the heat rises in your body.
Identify the Story: What “loop” just started? (e.g., “They don’t care about my history,” or “They are privileged, they don’t understand.”)
Check the Frequency: Is this story serving your “Heart-Space,” or is it keeping you in the “Fear Wing”?
The Choice: Can you put down your flag for one minute and simply see the flesh as flesh?
Let me know what surfaces for you all. Even if uncomfy. We are here together. 🫶🏽
Till next time Data Collectors.
